Mis-read

Have you ever felt as though no one reads you right or they misread you altogether. I get that a lot. I don't know what it is that people see from me. No, I do not get over excited about things that some do but that does not mean that I am bound. I am totally free. That is why if I am sad, mad, angry, happy, joyous or excited. It doesn't mean I am bound. In fact the word bound means to be captured by someone or something. Yes, I would agree that my usual look is probably not that of extreme joy but I have a peace inside that goes beyond your comprehension. That is just it. Too many times we count on others to put on a face for us to feel good around them. We want them to make us feel better about ourselves. I can say I am free because I am not afraid to show emotions. I am, in my understanding "transparent". Being transparent disturbs peoples comfort zone. I can sit and watch people all day react to me and get a kick out of it. I can't believe how someone can be so influential to others without saying a word. I am sure that you have met those people who seem to always be on top of the world all of the time. Boy, I have and at first impressions they seem to be all of that and more but, the reality is that I have spent a bit of time with a lot of these same type of people trying to get some encouragement from them. It only leads me to disappointment. When you get to know them on a personal level, they are just as screwed up as I am. That is right! They wear a face for you and it serves as a saftey net for them to never allow anyone to see the real them. Intimacy is hard with people. If you look for them to satify you and bring you up all of the time you are no more than a spiritual vampire who can suck the Joy out of life. Now here is the real perspective. You can't hide those insecurities and fear of intimacy from God so, Why try? He sees it all weather you want him to or not. He is a perfect God as well. Behold I stand at the door and knock, If you will hear my voice and open it, I will come in and sup with you and you with me. Anytime God sits down to "SUP" with you He is allowing you an opportunity to become intimate with Him. Communion in the bible symbolizes relationship and communication. You can not be truly intimate with God unless you communicate with Him. A true friendship will allow others to see the parts of you that you are not quick to reveal. Relax, God loves you and wants you to remove the door or as the door in the Old Testament is concerned "The Veil". What you don't realize is that in order to get to the door you had to enter first. God only became intimate after you made the first step but He no longer puts the veil in front of us, we do. Why not let Him rent your veil this Easter weekend and let the Son rise in you? God Bless Scott